Assalamualaikum, hello guysss!
Hehe actually I am not really sure who's still reading this blog, but whoever you are, thank you for dropping by.
So, where should I start?
First and foremost, I just moved to Cyberjaya and work in a hospital in this area. I can say, it is so-called 'first class' hospital as it does not provide 3rd class beds so far that I know. Still struggling to adapt here though I have been working in this hospital for a month.
The environment is different.
The colleagues are different.
The system is totally different.
The approach is different.
The working 'politic' is different
Well, different hospitals have different styles. That is common.
I only know one person who used to work together with me in my previous hospital. And to be honest, the main reason I choose this hospital is because of the location - in between Perak & Johor so that we can take turn to go visit our family. Oh yaa, my husband is originally from Johor.
Luckily I choose to rent a unit of 2 bedrooms quite close to the hospital. About 10minutes journey. Quite a number of people suggested for me to rent around Seri Kembangan, Dengkil, Bangi, Puchong etc for a cheaper rent. But, I am from Perak, I am not used to drive 30-40minutes just to go to work, passing through highway with tolls and facing traffic jams.
"Dah kerja kat sini, kena la lalui. Itu lumrah."
Well, yeah I understand.
I tried to look for alternatives. It was either I spend money for lower rent (which was RM100 lower?) for cheaper place to stay but need to face those journeys... or I spend higher amount for somewhere closer.
I chose the latter.
But, I totally respect those who choose the former. :)
During the first few days, I can already feel the differences in living cost - where it was not easy to find a small kedai runcit, simple kedai makan etc. So I initially doubted my decision. However, after I went through my first oncall which was working at 8am today only to punch out at 5pm the next day... I finally relieved with my decision. Having microsleep while driving was totally not good. I was glad that my unit was not that far.
I honestly dislike oncall system. I had experienced oncall system when I was at early phase of housemanship (where the system was changed to shift system later). Staying awake for 36hours from 5-6am till at least 6pm the next day... I hate it. -_-' Some people maybe don't really mind oncall system but my body actually cannot take it.
I didn't get the department I choose. So that's another challenge. To make decisions for managements on something I don't have passion about... is really a challenge. People always say 'just try first, maybe you will develop your interest.' I tried. A month passed, still the feeling is not there. Haha.
Why are you pushing someone to do something they don't like?
But again, people will say, 'bersyukur lah kau masih ada kerja.'
Hahaha okay then, I rest my case.
Don't worry, I will still do my best. I will always try to do my best within my limit. :)
“Dan boleh jadi kamu tidak menyukai kepada sesuatu padahal ia baik bagi kamu, dan boleh jadi kamu menyukai sesuatu padahal ia buruk bagi kamu. Dan Allah mengetahui sedang kamu tidak mengetahui.” Al-Baqarah ayat 216
Last few days, I had a talk with a colleague who is currently in the same boat.
S: Perasan tak, Allah uji kita benda yang kita tak suka.
H: Kan... Lagi kita tak suka, lagi Allah bagi. Memang nak ajar kita kesabaran. Mungkin nak kita overcome perasaan tak suka tu.
And yeah, we are the chosen one to join the Covid team at quarantine centers in November-December. Alhamdulillah tak kena deployed ke Sabah. T_T
Doakan yaaa.
p/s: anyway, sorry for the negative vibe post. Haha I just need to rant it out first then I will be cool insyAllah.
Cyberjaya
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